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It's fascinating to see the difference and growth in ones writing, but through the years I know I've dealt a drastic change in my writing style, and not only because I've grown, but also because I have lost people I loved, people who died that I cared for and that I knew. On top of dealing having to watch both brother's going through critical operations while I could do nothing, same is said when I lost my Dad suddenly at seventeen.
I felt like the world had dealt me a horrible hand of fate, that we had already gone through so damn much and yet we are thrown through something none of us fathomed. Not long after my writing had changed, I could no longer write stories that would please people, and I moved far from the genre of Romance since it all just began to feel fake to me.
I found that in my books of recent years I've come to work on realistic characters and they're development, they're relationships with one another and how it can change the story. Like with my recent novel FrAcTuReD, where years have gone by for Charla since the loss of her twin brother but she is still feeling it, still dealing with it and so are others in the story but in many different ways.
She doesn't just jump back and think all is fine with the world when you know how her brother died and how it affected her. losing family can be extremely devastating (or some people just wouldn't give a damn, it happens) and the fact that so many just want to see them as they were before I honestly find rather insulting. And it's something I've actually dealt with personally.
Not three months had gone by since my Dad's death and I'm asked why I'm not like how I used to be, it can be an innocent question enough but I was disgusted with the one who said it, I was close to raging at them for it. I know everyone is different, we don't all act the same, we are our own person, but being told that I should go right back to how I was before he died angered me, it made me feel like to them my Father wasn't important to me, that he was just some insignificant person, what's more it made me feel like no one could understand, and in a sense no one really could. Personal loss is different for everyone, just like ourselves and how we live.I've had to cope and deal with the hand that had been dealt to me, much like the main character in FrAcTuReD.
You could say that the story is a metaphor in how many people deal with loss and their own ways of coping with it or even flat out ignoring that it even happened.
It makes me just wish more people were open to that...
But you know to tell you the truth, I'm glad, I'm glad that this is how my writing has taken shape and how real it can feel for me, like these fictional characters actually can/could exist in the world.
Life and death can be a horrible, terrible thing but it can also shape you into a strong individual, which is something that I think if my Dad was still alive would be proud of how far I've come since I started writing.
Sorry for the weird WTF post here but I kind of wanted to get my personal thoughts out there, sorry if it sounds dumb as all hell but it's how I feel, hope you don't mind.
I felt like the world had dealt me a horrible hand of fate, that we had already gone through so damn much and yet we are thrown through something none of us fathomed. Not long after my writing had changed, I could no longer write stories that would please people, and I moved far from the genre of Romance since it all just began to feel fake to me.
I found that in my books of recent years I've come to work on realistic characters and they're development, they're relationships with one another and how it can change the story. Like with my recent novel FrAcTuReD, where years have gone by for Charla since the loss of her twin brother but she is still feeling it, still dealing with it and so are others in the story but in many different ways.
She doesn't just jump back and think all is fine with the world when you know how her brother died and how it affected her. losing family can be extremely devastating (or some people just wouldn't give a damn, it happens) and the fact that so many just want to see them as they were before I honestly find rather insulting. And it's something I've actually dealt with personally.
Not three months had gone by since my Dad's death and I'm asked why I'm not like how I used to be, it can be an innocent question enough but I was disgusted with the one who said it, I was close to raging at them for it. I know everyone is different, we don't all act the same, we are our own person, but being told that I should go right back to how I was before he died angered me, it made me feel like to them my Father wasn't important to me, that he was just some insignificant person, what's more it made me feel like no one could understand, and in a sense no one really could. Personal loss is different for everyone, just like ourselves and how we live.I've had to cope and deal with the hand that had been dealt to me, much like the main character in FrAcTuReD.
You could say that the story is a metaphor in how many people deal with loss and their own ways of coping with it or even flat out ignoring that it even happened.
It makes me just wish more people were open to that...
But you know to tell you the truth, I'm glad, I'm glad that this is how my writing has taken shape and how real it can feel for me, like these fictional characters actually can/could exist in the world.
Life and death can be a horrible, terrible thing but it can also shape you into a strong individual, which is something that I think if my Dad was still alive would be proud of how far I've come since I started writing.
Sorry for the weird WTF post here but I kind of wanted to get my personal thoughts out there, sorry if it sounds dumb as all hell but it's how I feel, hope you don't mind.
I Made a Vtuber!
Yeah this might be a bit unorthodox but I wanted to share this. Hope you guys like it.
I Recorded my own audio book
Yup, just at the title of this says, I decided to say "screw it" and recorded audio of me reading my own book. Or more accurately, the Prologue to Mansion of Dolls. For those that don't know or have read the story, Mansion of Dolls is a slow burn horror story centered around five people who end up visiting a secluded Japanese village and soon discover that something about the place isn't right. I won't say more then that because spoilers (or you could also just read the book if you really wanted to know) but here's the video in question, it's not all that long, in fact it's pretty short, clocking in at nearly 8min, and it's just my voice, I haven't tried being ballzy and doing some crazy edits/sound effects, I might over time but for now, it's just going to be my voice. Though truth be told it probably sucks... Still, if you guys decide to give it a listen, let me know what you think, I'd really appreciate some feedback about it. Link: https://youtu.be/RsyBlwJZNds
My friend's comic was dubbed!!
So a bit ago my friend :iconreibara: had her comic from Miraculous Ladybug dubbed!! And it's both hilarious and amazing!! If you want to check it out feel free!! Here's the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnWmHuV7aZM And here's the link to the first page for her comic! (click the image to go to her page to see the rest!) Go give :iconreibara: some love, she deserves it!! :huggle:
So I finally started to play NieR Automata
So yeah, just like the title says I finally started playing NieR Automata (the Steam version) finally. Because before I could never get the optics right on my laptop but now with my desktop computer I can actually play games I've been wanting too for a very long while. Which is also why I've been recording my experiences as well, granted I'm not the best and I'm still trying to figure the whole recording business and getting the audio right (which has all been trial and error) and also just wanting to have fun with it. But with this game in particular, its been something I've wanted to play for along time, since it came out, which was four years ago, and now I finally can. I've been a fan of the NieR/Drakengard series of games since I first played NieR Gestalt on PS3 as well as Drakengard 3, and always wanted to try and record my thoughts, even though I've never played Automata, I know certain aspects of the game because of Gestalt. (I'm also working on a fan-fic that takes place
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That seems to be a common pattern I've noticed overtime...artistic/gifted individuals (in your case literature) tend to suffer in some form...including the lose of loved ones. Sorry for your losses....